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Endeavocil

from Peons by Thoroughbred Racing Pigeon

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This track is about drug consumption, whether that be medicated or not. It is about hating your day-to-day grind, your job, your life, enough that you'd prefer to be on a drug that allows a mindless state to get you through it. In the song the drug is called Endeavocil. It seems like the perfect way to make that workweek fly by. An unfortunate side effect of the drug is you might try to kill yourself while on it. It's mostly a comment on prescribing away pain with medication instead of choosing to make things better.

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I slowly return to consciousness on the drive home. I should've taken one more pill. It's difficult to explain Endeavocil, like a blackout with no loss of cognitive thought or motor skill. A beautiful numbness, an escape from my meaningless workplace. If feeling good is not an option, I'd rather feel nothing instead. I haven't worked in over a month, not on the drug. I can't go back. Some blackouts take longer than others. I'm starting to wish I'd never come back. This waking life is haunting me. I've punched in and out for the last time. I don't want to come back. An unforeseen consequence of perpetual bliss. Last night I woke with a razor blade to my wrist. I fade in fast, the transition is seamless. I'm going to give my life, lived awake, another chance. But it was too much, it was too cold, too cruel. This world was not meant for me and I relapsed. I say goodbye to being in charge of my own life. I pop the pill. Now I roll the dice.

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from Peons, released December 12, 2012
Pat "The Bat" Chell provides the second set of lung skins.

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